no complaining policy

i had an epiphany this morning that when people complain incessantly they are actually saying, "it's not my fault and there is nothing i can do about it" (and at my office it is usually implied, "so you do something about it.") it seems like a wimpy way out. so i'm going to institute for myself a "no complaining policy." the title may be a little extreme, b/c i actually mean that i can't complain unless i can say what am i going to do about it. you are welcome to keep me accountable with this..until i tell you not to. heheh. if i'm ever brave enough i may start instituting this policy at work with other people. "so..what are you going to do about it?" i'm learning that people may give me reason to be upset but ultimately my life is my responsibility and i can choose how i will react. or that even if i have reason to be upset or unhappy, i'm allowed to feel how i feel and then i need to decide, "ok, what am i going to do about it?" i think that will also help me develop some emotional boundaries, as in, not let it bring me down when people have negative attitudes. this will also be helpful when i go to massive family reunion time in tx. and instead of worrying incessantly about my leg and the drama of "when am i getting better?" i'll just have to respect that it hurts and give it time to heal. in the meanwhile will be having fun trying to stand on my head in yoga, taking bubble baths every night and doing pushups and ab-work until i can feel it all day. hey, if i can't run/bike i may as well prep for it!

of course, i am allowed to have my venting sessions every now and again. and of course, i actually enjoy listening to other people's venting sessions- just not incessantly- b/c it makes us all human.

i went to TNYA swim today for the first time since the last week of October. and even if it takes me an hr and 10 mins to get to the Wednesday TNYA pool, i love swimming!! i put myself in the slowest lane (there are only 3.. and lane 1, the fastest lane has only one person but his 100's descend start on 1:20) for the warmup, decided that i would try the middle lane again and ended up swimming well. i didn't really check the clock (such a relief to not be the lead!) but i believe our whole lane stayed w/in our intervals meaning that we stayed around 1:40 on the 100's. i actually kept bumping into the person in front of me until i was the 2nd in line. oops! the tnya people are super friendly and nice and it is just nice to swim with people who can push you but don't bring their egos into the pool. i would like to get to an average of 1:35 for 100's w/in a few months (i think i'm close!) and then maybe 1:30 before the end of next tri season. is that doable? there is a 1-hr swim on jan 24 or 25 and i think it would be fun to try. even more exciting is that TNYA does water polo every tuesday night. wouldn't that be fun to try out? some day...